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March/April 2006 Spirituality
I Want To Go Home: The Incarnation Trauma of Being Indigo

by Ronda Mau

A beautiful young woman in her early thirties was struggling to understand why the world did not want what she was here to give. She, in her conscious being, had not asked for the incredible awareness, sensitivities and gifts that left her feeling unlike her family or friends. She wrestled with even wanting to be on this planet. She and her message, and the good medicine she brought to humanity, felt unwelcome.

Many EVs (meaning “expanded version of human beings” and referring to those called “Indigos”) carry an incarnation trama imprint because of not wanting to navigate this world of gross energies. These wonderful beings, with their light and gifts, feel scared and confused about being who they are. They fear being rejected or eliciting fear in others who cannot understand them. They fear their own power and abilities. At the same time, they are unable to imagine being other than who they are. In order for EVs to live the life that is theirs to live and express the mission they are on the earth to share, this incarnation trauma becomes critical to address and transform.

Through the use of muscle testing, a natural form of biofeedback, the moment of incarnation is usually identified as traumatic for EVs. Because of their heightened sensitivities, this initial trauma is followed by more trauma in the womb and later in early life. I have found energy psychology very helpful in transforming these pre-verbal imprints. This approach uses principles of Chinese medicine and Quantum physics to wholistically target and shift what is out of balance in a person’s life. EVs are amazingly equipped to rapidly move the energy of the disruptive patterns once they are given the map as to how to do so.

An incarnation imprint is foundational to how one experiences life in this realm. When one does not want to be here (very different than feeling suicidal), and longs deeply to go home, he or she is unable to be fully present to life. The gears of living get jammed. They cannot share what they have been given with a world so desperately in need. Child EVs often act out and appear to have ADD or ADHD. Adult EVs may hide who they are or have great difficulty making the logistics of daily life (like earning a living) work. Friendship is hard to come by, at least of the deeper kind. Trust becomes a major conundrum.

The traumas, due to this pattern, begin to create for some a feeling of despair and being trapped. They long for the very medicine they have come to bring to our world.

Like every other human being, they need love and acceptance and community. Instead they feel isolated, confused, weird, and not knowing what to do with the deeper understanding and gifts they carry.

Piece by piece we must identify the trauma imprints, beginning with incarnation, and any blocks that have accumulated along the EV’s way to knowing and being him or herself in this world. Learning how to ground on this planet and yet be fully who the EV is can be enormously freeing. There is a great joy that rises when their good medicine begins to make an impact in this world.

When hearts and heads and higher selves all line up, these folks really do hold some of the secret Love and Light and healing our world must receive if humanity is to find its way in the evolutionary process without inflicting so much pain on one another. My heart is deeply grateful that EVs bring the love and mercy and wisdom to help us all find our way home.

Ronda Mau is a Licensed Professional Counselor in Portland, OR, specializing in adult and child Indigos.